Kyosuke Martz, May 1,2005 - October 3, 2005

Kyo died at 2:34am.

He was curled up on my chest purring as I lay in bed. He got up and then slumped over and hit his head off the wall. He lay there slack and had trouble breathing. I moved him a little so he wouldn't be on his back where he might choke on his tongue. He stopped breathing, then he struggled to breathe.

Then he just shuddered. And then... he was still.

I stroked his fur. I cried a whole lot. I called Mom. I called Cameron.

I have to call the vet tomorrow.

Yes, he had that congenital heart murmur, but I didn't think it'd take him this soon. He was only five months old.

I feel so alone...

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I hate the Fairmont Veterinary Hospital. I have to call some other company that doesn't answer their phone at 8:30am to get Kyo's body taken care of. Why can't the fucking vets take care of the body for me? I work 9-7 today, tomorrow and Wednesday. When the fuck am I going to be able to call them and take him to wherever I have to? I don't even have a place to bury him.

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$125 for cremation.

Can't afford it, especially when it looks like I'm going to end up $300 short of being able to make my move to Denver as it is. Jess' garden is sounding better and better by the minute.

I don't want to go back to work (on break now), but I don't want to be alone, so work is better than sitting at home trying not to go over and pet my dead cat. He's wrapped in a towel in the cat carrier for now.

And the day just keeps getting better...

I now have a fucking Trojan Horse virus on my computer that doesn't seem to want to be removed by the antivirus program I was told would remove it. Tough little bugger that fucking virus is. It spammed my whole buddy list from AIM, so if you happen to get a message from me about some picture, don't download it.

Until I get this virus expungfed from my computer, I'm using Trillian to stop the spreading of said virus. I'm just not a fan of Trillian.